My life since 1 year from now has been going so wrong I can't even believe it. I don't know if I have been making the wrong choices or something, the truth is my life is going in a direction that I've never wanted. Somehow I feel unable to change it now.
I came to London in order to have a better life, invest in myself and follow my dream of becoming a performer of Arabic and African dances. But one year ago I met Habibi. He is from Tunisia and the same age as me. He is illegal. He was in a very bad situation when we first met and I've been helping him as much as I can since then. Because I wanted, because I felt sorry for such a nice man, not that he manipulated me or something.
He is cute, sensitive but still the strongest man I've ever seen, he is so clever and funny. And I know he has strong values and I can almost put my hands in the fire that he is never going to cheat on me. His family is lovely as well and has always been so welcoming of me.
The problem? I'm living in a small studio in London (everything is small as hell!!) and my life now is only about working and going home. I don't have time to meet my friends, and when I have that opportunity I basically need to ask for his approval. I don't have dreams anymore and this is the perfect time for me, I'm afraid I won't have 2 chances to build my career.
My thoughts: to have this kind of life I would rather stay in my country next to my family.
On the other side I know that he is probably the most respectful and faithful man I will ever know and I actually do appreciate him a lot (love?), and I know I'm gonna regret every day if I leave him.
So the thing is, which path should I take?
