Life lately (extra messy)

No, nop, not really.
I refuse to believe in how my life just turned into this huge mess in the last couple months.
Seriously, it just became ridiculously unbearable.

Remember me and Habibi splitting?  Yeah, he is still here.
Why? Well, he decided to present himself to Immigration (he has been illegal in the UK since before I met him) as he wants to go back to Tunisia. However, they didn't do anything at all, they just said they couldn't help him. So he came back, and he is now in contact with Refugee Action, an organisation that promises to pay for the ticket back home if he decides to go back. This process takes a bit of time (couple months? more maybe?) as it involves some legal procedures.

Becoming a feminist

I've never considered myself to be a feminist. I am not the kind of person to follow "trends" or to be that much influenced. I usually just react to what a feel. And lately I've been feeling particularly attacked.

That idea of fighting for "equality" of the sexes is a bit ridiculous, at my sight. Women are different from men in several ways, there's no way we can be treated with the demanded equality. And here in between us, let's be completely honest with ourselves and accept that equality between sexes is nothing but a utopia.

Going back to Yoga!

After such a long time (1 year and half already??) I am finally going back to Yoga!
I can't believe it was so long ago when I used to sit in the dark and focus all my energy in myself and actually train my body to its fullest. I can't call it "Yoga" coz I'm not an expert in the subject and I've never had any lessons. Let's call it "my Yoga".

Sitting in the floor, candle lights on, a light inspirational music, ... I would stay in this for ages. I would do my own work out in this environment, focusing in my elasticity and body strength. Very Yoga-inspired, hun?
I would end up feeling so much stronger, inside and out. I loved that feeling of renovation.

Blogging: Authenticity vs Anonymity

I've been thinking about this subject lately and I would like to hear from you guys.

Getting on-line, eventually through a blog, vlog or any other that gives you plenty of exposure, is quite a delicate matter.

When choosing a way to present yourself to others,  you can decide either to build a virtual identity with no real name or details about your personal life, or to turn yourself public and share your life just as it is, in a transparent way.

If the first might lead to some lack of authenticity and - perhaps - empathy from others or make you feel too distant from your public, the second might make them way too close and more difficult for you to control what part of your life comes out public.

Choccywoccydoodah

Did you look at that title?  Really weird, isn't it? Just like the place itself, if you gonna think about how cake/chocolate places usually look like. But let's say "weird" in a very positive way.

Choccywoccydoodah,  who doesn't know the show? I used to watch it with my younger sister back home. Just casually,  but the name was still very familiar to us. "Choccywo... oh, that show where they do insane cake decoration only with chocolate! ",  that's how we knew it.

Well I imagined the store was situated in Brighton, for the pictures they used to pass in the show. However only 2 weeks ago I knew about the existence of a second store,  in London!!
So as an obviously-not-a-chocolate-lover that I am (insert sarcasm right here) of course I had to pay a visit.

The story behind my recent house change

So I recently had to leave my lovely space - which I was loving to call "home" - due to the end of a 7-month contract. Unfortunately I couldn't renovate it as Habibi stopped working and I couldn't afford it all by myself; also our relationship has came to an end, so no point of keeping the place.

Our relationship as recently come to an end, but we are still sharing the same room. Actually we are still sharing everything as normal, only keeping in mind that Habibi is going back to Tunisia at any time.
He wasn't showing any signals of worry about finding a new place, as we had to move in 1 week time. So I was the one under stress trying to find something viable but not too expensive - I'm definitely not in the mood to spend all my money when I see him not worrying about anything and having this amazing do-whatever-I-want lifestyle.

So I finally got this double room which is not too expensive and very close to our last place. I came to view the property and I wasn't very impressed - the kitchen was small and full of dirty dishes, the toilets also didn't get my approval (although they are not dirty, they look old),  the house in general wasn't a palace. The decoration of the room wasn't lovely - red carpet and purple curtains (!!!).
But oh well, this is not a permanent place.
And that's why I picked it - no contract necessary, minimum stay 1 month (not 6 as I usually see), and 2 weeks notice necessary (not 1 month). The fact that my actual situation is so unsure, I need to stay in a place where I'll have the right flexibility to plan and move. I won't be trapped for months and months of contracts in a place I don't want to be. I can easily move out.

The funny part? 
2 days after I finally got the place, I was going home from work just to find out that Habibi had left with his stuff - he went to Immigration.
I was crying so much, my life lost meaning for a bit. I couldn't believe my eyes.
Luckily he went too late and nobody "served" him. He had to come back home.
So we are still together, but he is going next week - for good.
I asked him to stay until my birthday, which is next Friday 5th June.

After that it will be a completely new life.

Dear Instagram - May '15

June has arrived and May haven't seen the best of me.
May was not the month in which I made my presence in Instagram stronger. It was actually a very difficult month for me, full of emotional episodes that you might be aware of if you read my last posts.
So I wasn't really online a lot, even in the blog itself.

Anyway better times will come, and so I hope to become closer to the blog and you guys.
This was my last month in pictures, enjoy!

My Instagram over here.