Christmas + Habibi

I'm really disappointed.

It's already difficult for me to spend Christmas away from my parents and my sisters, and it had to be even worst as Habibi seemed not to give a shit about it. We fought again, this time in Christmas eve.

My older sister couldn't come to Skype last night - she lives in Luxembourg with her husband, 1yo son and 10yo step daughter -  which was already bad, as she was with her husband's family and unable to spend Christmas with us. So my parents and younger sister were by themselves at home, with no spirit at all.

Back in London, I worked until 7pm, Habibi until 9pm. I came home and put on Christmas songs while secretly redecorating our place in a very very warm way, which I hoped Habibi would like.

Update – December 2014 summary

I’ve been so unable to get online and write for the blog, I’m so sorryyyyyyy L

This has been a crazy month, full of tomanythingstodoatthesametime, a lot of worries and a lot of emotional disasters.

Starting by my job. I’m not happy at all, I don’t like most of the people there, I don’t see myself working there, I don’t like it. Everyday it’s a huge challenge for me to get ready to go back to that place. I’ve even been late a lot of times this month due to my inability to leave home knowing that I’m going there. I also had fights with the managers and whatever, they’re not professional anyway. They are not more capable than me, to be honest. Anyway I told them I’m leaving my position in the company. I’m just waiting for the end of the year to give my resignation letter.

My precious Habibi

Habibi is so precious to me.

We have a lot of problems and sometimes I think we might not be together forever due to many differences that there are between us.
Also at this moment I'm still trying to get over the shock of seeing my ex Kevin, which makes me doubt everything.

But in the end I know that Habibi is probably the most amazing man I've ever met.
He is so strong but sensitive and dedicated at the same time. And he respects me, even with all my defects. I'm lucky!

Coincidence from Hell? - My Ex!

I'm still in shock, I can't stop thinking about it.

Last Thursday, 11th December, I was working as normal in what happened to be a very quiet day in the shoes store where I work. I was in charge of the front floor, next to the entrance, where I NEVER work, I'm always in charge of women's section, in the top floor. But thi
s time there I was.

In the middle of the afternoon, with no customers to serve, I got distracted with something else, when I noticed 3 young males coming in and staring at the shoes. I decided to go and offer them my help, as I am expected to do. I heard them talking, they were from my country! YEAY, exciting!
I was actually 3 meters away when I saw the
face of one of them.

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December + Day off = Total Laziness

Yes, I'm off, and yes it's December.
Yes it's super cold and it's time for warm clothes and a soft and comfy bed.

So for today there was nothing better to do than staying home, in total laziness, enjoying our love spot.

Here some pics:

Music #1

Just because...
I was working today and I found myself psychologically dancing to this song.
A masterpiece, no doubt  

Piercings - my secret passion

I know I don't usually say it but ... I love piercings.
Well I love art, and it happens to exist something called body art. It includes piercings and tattoos, and I love them!

Let's say I appreciate them in specific places and with some logic. Let's not just do piercings and tattoos wherever we have space, no. I don't like it, I don't think it's nice.

Why not France?

Je pense que nous serions heureux dans la terre de l'amour.

Just thinking about migration and stuff, the idea of living in France came to my mind.
Why not?
Just here by our side, a beautiful country, good food, same country where Habibi's parents and sister live, also next to my older sister and nephew who live in Luxembourg, and also easier to meet my parents and younger sister in my home country.

Definitely a big Why not?!

If one day we will have to leave this country, we know where to try our happiness.

Au revoir mon petits!

Bad news, more worries

CHAT | We just received the news that Habibi's friend, Hatab, got the answer to his VISA request. It was refused, he must leave the UK.

He and his wife, a Polish woman in her 20s, met last year and married in January of this year. For what I know, they married too early - my opinion. Although they really liked each other and wanted to stay together, she married him too early in their relationship knowing his conditions in the country.

Worries about the future

I think there is nothing worst for the soul than suffering in advance for something that might not even happen. It's like an endless escape from a terrible nightmare.
Well... that's one of my problems.

I remember when I was younger and I couldn't be happy due to all the pressure I used to put on myself. It can be really tough, but one of the biggest steps towards reaching happiness is to learn to accept and learn with the past, enjoy and think in the present, and calmly deal with the future as it comes.
However this is a big lesson that you get to learn during all your life and sometimes it seems impossible to think rationally.

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We went then to the Imam’s office, full of books in Arabic, including the Qur'an. The Imam, me and Habibi and two witnesses, it was enough for the ceremony. We started talking about the marriage itself and everything was explained on how the ceremony would be.

We talked about Mahr – the wedding gift the groom must offer to the bride or to her family. It can be a big amount of money or a very valuable object that automatically becomes the bride’s property. It’s supposed to be a support for the future wife in case that something happens to the husband. It must match the bride’s wishes.

They asked me what I wanted as Mahr. £10.000? £100.000? It didn’t really matter to me, so we accorded Habibi must offer me £500, as a symbol.

Married in Islam - part 1/2

For some time we have been discussing about marrying in his religion to make it Halal in front of Allah. Something simple, with no family and no friends – with not even papers! - only for us to make official our intention of having a long life together –inshallah!

Engagement

My life has been full of adventures, especially in the last year. And surprises! Lots of good surprises! And since Habibi is by my side it got even better as he is Mr Surprise of all times. Always ready to do a little something that will make me a bit happier. I can’t really describe how magical he can be.

Today I had a long and busy day at work – as usual – while Habibi had his so appreciated day off. I confess I always wonder what he is doing when I’m not present, but I never imagine the good things coming from his hands that can be waiting for me.

Finally! Conditions to write!

I couldn't be much happier in this phase of my life!

One week after I moved from the horror place to my new comfy home, things finally seem to start to have their place in my life. I've been lost in the middle of the so many things to worry about when moving that I haven't really had the time to sit back and just write. I still don't, but somehow I manage it.

Getting started...

Finally, my first post in my so wanted blog!

I must confess I've been wanting so badly to start my new adventure in the blogs world.
I used to have a blog long time ago. It lasted for 4 or 5 years, I remember. It was a really good experience but somehow it just stopped making sense for me.

But the feeling came again and brought me back to the keyboard.