After 1 year, me and Habibi split

I don't really know how to write this post, but I feel like I have to talk about it. It 's a very deep part of my life at the moment, so there's no way I can keep going without bringing this to the blog.

Me and Habibi have been always on and off, lots of issues going on, and it actually came to an end.
I am crying as I write this post, because I am not sure how I'm going to do through this.

Worries about the future

I think there is nothing worst for the soul than suffering in advance for something that might not even happen. It's like an endless escape from a terrible nightmare.
Well... that's one of my problems.

I remember when I was younger and I couldn't be happy due to all the pressure I used to put on myself. It can be really tough, but one of the biggest steps towards reaching happiness is to learn to accept and learn with the past, enjoy and think in the present, and calmly deal with the future as it comes.
However this is a big lesson that you get to learn during all your life and sometimes it seems impossible to think rationally.