Life lately

Life in the past weeks hasn't been making it easy for me.

Me and Habibi have been talking about moving outside London, perhaps Manchester or Liverpool. Definitely cheaper and easier to have a deep breath without having to excuse myself. Honestly, and as I said before, I'm not in love with London anymore. Nice for a single person who doesn't have a future to worry about and has all an availability to go out and enjoy this huge city. For me it's time to look for a better place for myself in a less crowded environment, where I can focus in building my future.

Also Habibi had the stupid idea to leave his job 2 weeks ago, out of nowhere! He is illegal, so it's not that easy for him to get another job. Until this very moment he didn't find anything, so here we are with no future to be seen.

Update – December 2014 summary

I’ve been so unable to get online and write for the blog, I’m so sorryyyyyyy L

This has been a crazy month, full of tomanythingstodoatthesametime, a lot of worries and a lot of emotional disasters.

Starting by my job. I’m not happy at all, I don’t like most of the people there, I don’t see myself working there, I don’t like it. Everyday it’s a huge challenge for me to get ready to go back to that place. I’ve even been late a lot of times this month due to my inability to leave home knowing that I’m going there. I also had fights with the managers and whatever, they’re not professional anyway. They are not more capable than me, to be honest. Anyway I told them I’m leaving my position in the company. I’m just waiting for the end of the year to give my resignation letter.

Worries about the future

I think there is nothing worst for the soul than suffering in advance for something that might not even happen. It's like an endless escape from a terrible nightmare.
Well... that's one of my problems.

I remember when I was younger and I couldn't be happy due to all the pressure I used to put on myself. It can be really tough, but one of the biggest steps towards reaching happiness is to learn to accept and learn with the past, enjoy and think in the present, and calmly deal with the future as it comes.
However this is a big lesson that you get to learn during all your life and sometimes it seems impossible to think rationally.