The story behind my recent house change

So I recently had to leave my lovely space - which I was loving to call "home" - due to the end of a 7-month contract. Unfortunately I couldn't renovate it as Habibi stopped working and I couldn't afford it all by myself; also our relationship has came to an end, so no point of keeping the place.

Our relationship as recently come to an end, but we are still sharing the same room. Actually we are still sharing everything as normal, only keeping in mind that Habibi is going back to Tunisia at any time.
He wasn't showing any signals of worry about finding a new place, as we had to move in 1 week time. So I was the one under stress trying to find something viable but not too expensive - I'm definitely not in the mood to spend all my money when I see him not worrying about anything and having this amazing do-whatever-I-want lifestyle.

So I finally got this double room which is not too expensive and very close to our last place. I came to view the property and I wasn't very impressed - the kitchen was small and full of dirty dishes, the toilets also didn't get my approval (although they are not dirty, they look old),  the house in general wasn't a palace. The decoration of the room wasn't lovely - red carpet and purple curtains (!!!).
But oh well, this is not a permanent place.
And that's why I picked it - no contract necessary, minimum stay 1 month (not 6 as I usually see), and 2 weeks notice necessary (not 1 month). The fact that my actual situation is so unsure, I need to stay in a place where I'll have the right flexibility to plan and move. I won't be trapped for months and months of contracts in a place I don't want to be. I can easily move out.

The funny part? 
2 days after I finally got the place, I was going home from work just to find out that Habibi had left with his stuff - he went to Immigration.
I was crying so much, my life lost meaning for a bit. I couldn't believe my eyes.
Luckily he went too late and nobody "served" him. He had to come back home.
So we are still together, but he is going next week - for good.
I asked him to stay until my birthday, which is next Friday 5th June.

After that it will be a completely new life.

After 1 year, me and Habibi split

I don't really know how to write this post, but I feel like I have to talk about it. It 's a very deep part of my life at the moment, so there's no way I can keep going without bringing this to the blog.

Me and Habibi have been always on and off, lots of issues going on, and it actually came to an end.
I am crying as I write this post, because I am not sure how I'm going to do through this.

Relationship ABC - the 2nd chance

Nobody said it's easy to keep a relationship growing long and healthy. There are moments where you will definitely question your relationship and your future together (or alone).

If you're just in a let's-get-it-going-until-I-don't-like-it-anymore kind of relationship, then you will give up and split in the first setback. On the other hand, if you are in a serious and adult relationship with someone that you respect and respects you back, then that someone will definitely answer to your needs and make you feel loved; for that reason you will think twice before any dramatic change because you don't want to hurt or disrespect the person. Specially if you are living together.

Unsure about my future with Habibi

My relationship with Habibi is not bad.

He treats me very well, he is honest and sweet.

But my heart doesn't know what it wants.
These last period I've been suffering with this mix of feelings that I can't handle.

To be honest, I never had that "passion" for him.

We met in a very cute way in the end of April. I really liked his attitude and the way he looked so calm and respectful.

Wishlist - Labrador!!

Okkkkkk.
So I decided to open up about things that I want! Things that I'm dreaming of. Things I just can't take out of my mind.
It's my pure consumerist desire, that one that kills me insiiiiiiiiide - ok, no dramas.

And my first big wish to be shared is:
Labrador Retriever!

Wishes of happiness for 2015!

It seems like the year started in a good way.
Habibi and me have been in a good mood, full of love and affection. He takes care of me, I take care of him.
I'm happy. Everything seems ok.
The best man in this world is by my side! :)

Xoxo,

My precious Habibi

Habibi is so precious to me.

We have a lot of problems and sometimes I think we might not be together forever due to many differences that there are between us.
Also at this moment I'm still trying to get over the shock of seeing my ex Kevin, which makes me doubt everything.

But in the end I know that Habibi is probably the most amazing man I've ever met.
He is so strong but sensitive and dedicated at the same time. And he respects me, even with all my defects. I'm lucky!

Coincidence from Hell? - My Ex!

I'm still in shock, I can't stop thinking about it.

Last Thursday, 11th December, I was working as normal in what happened to be a very quiet day in the shoes store where I work. I was in charge of the front floor, next to the entrance, where I NEVER work, I'm always in charge of women's section, in the top floor. But thi
s time there I was.

In the middle of the afternoon, with no customers to serve, I got distracted with something else, when I noticed 3 young males coming in and staring at the shoes. I decided to go and offer them my help, as I am expected to do. I heard them talking, they were from my country! YEAY, exciting!
I was actually 3 meters away when I saw the
face of one of them.

December + Day off = Total Laziness

Yes, I'm off, and yes it's December.
Yes it's super cold and it's time for warm clothes and a soft and comfy bed.

So for today there was nothing better to do than staying home, in total laziness, enjoying our love spot.

Here some pics:

Why not France?

Je pense que nous serions heureux dans la terre de l'amour.

Just thinking about migration and stuff, the idea of living in France came to my mind.
Why not?
Just here by our side, a beautiful country, good food, same country where Habibi's parents and sister live, also next to my older sister and nephew who live in Luxembourg, and also easier to meet my parents and younger sister in my home country.

Definitely a big Why not?!

If one day we will have to leave this country, we know where to try our happiness.

Au revoir mon petits!

Worries about the future

I think there is nothing worst for the soul than suffering in advance for something that might not even happen. It's like an endless escape from a terrible nightmare.
Well... that's one of my problems.

I remember when I was younger and I couldn't be happy due to all the pressure I used to put on myself. It can be really tough, but one of the biggest steps towards reaching happiness is to learn to accept and learn with the past, enjoy and think in the present, and calmly deal with the future as it comes.
However this is a big lesson that you get to learn during all your life and sometimes it seems impossible to think rationally.

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We went then to the Imam’s office, full of books in Arabic, including the Qur'an. The Imam, me and Habibi and two witnesses, it was enough for the ceremony. We started talking about the marriage itself and everything was explained on how the ceremony would be.

We talked about Mahr – the wedding gift the groom must offer to the bride or to her family. It can be a big amount of money or a very valuable object that automatically becomes the bride’s property. It’s supposed to be a support for the future wife in case that something happens to the husband. It must match the bride’s wishes.

They asked me what I wanted as Mahr. £10.000? £100.000? It didn’t really matter to me, so we accorded Habibi must offer me £500, as a symbol.

Married in Islam - part 1/2

For some time we have been discussing about marrying in his religion to make it Halal in front of Allah. Something simple, with no family and no friends – with not even papers! - only for us to make official our intention of having a long life together –inshallah!

Engagement

My life has been full of adventures, especially in the last year. And surprises! Lots of good surprises! And since Habibi is by my side it got even better as he is Mr Surprise of all times. Always ready to do a little something that will make me a bit happier. I can’t really describe how magical he can be.

Today I had a long and busy day at work – as usual – while Habibi had his so appreciated day off. I confess I always wonder what he is doing when I’m not present, but I never imagine the good things coming from his hands that can be waiting for me.