After 1 year, me and Habibi split

I don't really know how to write this post, but I feel like I have to talk about it. It 's a very deep part of my life at the moment, so there's no way I can keep going without bringing this to the blog.

Me and Habibi have been always on and off, lots of issues going on, and it actually came to an end.
I am crying as I write this post, because I am not sure how I'm going to do through this.

Unsure about my future with Habibi

My relationship with Habibi is not bad.

He treats me very well, he is honest and sweet.

But my heart doesn't know what it wants.
These last period I've been suffering with this mix of feelings that I can't handle.

To be honest, I never had that "passion" for him.

We met in a very cute way in the end of April. I really liked his attitude and the way he looked so calm and respectful.

Update – December 2014 summary

I’ve been so unable to get online and write for the blog, I’m so sorryyyyyyy L

This has been a crazy month, full of tomanythingstodoatthesametime, a lot of worries and a lot of emotional disasters.

Starting by my job. I’m not happy at all, I don’t like most of the people there, I don’t see myself working there, I don’t like it. Everyday it’s a huge challenge for me to get ready to go back to that place. I’ve even been late a lot of times this month due to my inability to leave home knowing that I’m going there. I also had fights with the managers and whatever, they’re not professional anyway. They are not more capable than me, to be honest. Anyway I told them I’m leaving my position in the company. I’m just waiting for the end of the year to give my resignation letter.

Worries about the future

I think there is nothing worst for the soul than suffering in advance for something that might not even happen. It's like an endless escape from a terrible nightmare.
Well... that's one of my problems.

I remember when I was younger and I couldn't be happy due to all the pressure I used to put on myself. It can be really tough, but one of the biggest steps towards reaching happiness is to learn to accept and learn with the past, enjoy and think in the present, and calmly deal with the future as it comes.
However this is a big lesson that you get to learn during all your life and sometimes it seems impossible to think rationally.

Finally! Conditions to write!

I couldn't be much happier in this phase of my life!

One week after I moved from the horror place to my new comfy home, things finally seem to start to have their place in my life. I've been lost in the middle of the so many things to worry about when moving that I haven't really had the time to sit back and just write. I still don't, but somehow I manage it.