Life lately (extra messy)

No, nop, not really.
I refuse to believe in how my life just turned into this huge mess in the last couple months.
Seriously, it just became ridiculously unbearable.

Remember me and Habibi splitting?  Yeah, he is still here.
Why? Well, he decided to present himself to Immigration (he has been illegal in the UK since before I met him) as he wants to go back to Tunisia. However, they didn't do anything at all, they just said they couldn't help him. So he came back, and he is now in contact with Refugee Action, an organisation that promises to pay for the ticket back home if he decides to go back. This process takes a bit of time (couple months? more maybe?) as it involves some legal procedures.

Life lately #1

# new job, routine, missing home, my ex (again).

I'm going through a very difficult time at the moment.
I got this new job in the cake department of a party shop which kind of inspires me to bake. Also my team is ok, I have a good time with my colleagues, so I'm happy. However my workplace is far away from home, and I don't get paid as much as I would like. No good. So I'm worried and looking for another job.

Also it has been difficult to conciliate everything. Habibi too, he is not in a very good moment of his life. So between both jobs, home and other activities, we end up not having time for each other. Actually we don't have time for anything, we have to pick the little opportunities to actually do something. Well, big mess!

Update – December 2014 summary

I’ve been so unable to get online and write for the blog, I’m so sorryyyyyyy L

This has been a crazy month, full of tomanythingstodoatthesametime, a lot of worries and a lot of emotional disasters.

Starting by my job. I’m not happy at all, I don’t like most of the people there, I don’t see myself working there, I don’t like it. Everyday it’s a huge challenge for me to get ready to go back to that place. I’ve even been late a lot of times this month due to my inability to leave home knowing that I’m going there. I also had fights with the managers and whatever, they’re not professional anyway. They are not more capable than me, to be honest. Anyway I told them I’m leaving my position in the company. I’m just waiting for the end of the year to give my resignation letter.

My precious Habibi

Habibi is so precious to me.

We have a lot of problems and sometimes I think we might not be together forever due to many differences that there are between us.
Also at this moment I'm still trying to get over the shock of seeing my ex Kevin, which makes me doubt everything.

But in the end I know that Habibi is probably the most amazing man I've ever met.
He is so strong but sensitive and dedicated at the same time. And he respects me, even with all my defects. I'm lucky!

Coincidence from Hell? - My Ex!

I'm still in shock, I can't stop thinking about it.

Last Thursday, 11th December, I was working as normal in what happened to be a very quiet day in the shoes store where I work. I was in charge of the front floor, next to the entrance, where I NEVER work, I'm always in charge of women's section, in the top floor. But thi
s time there I was.

In the middle of the afternoon, with no customers to serve, I got distracted with something else, when I noticed 3 young males coming in and staring at the shoes. I decided to go and offer them my help, as I am expected to do. I heard them talking, they were from my country! YEAY, exciting!
I was actually 3 meters away when I saw the
face of one of them.