Life update - holidays, health, dreams and plans

As many of you might already know by reading my last posts, this year hasn't been making it easy for me, specially the last 3 or 4 months. Me and Habibi splitting (which is taking forever, let me tell you, we are still sharing the same place!), my job killing me day after day (too much work, no time and no money = not worth it) and basically me losing focus of what I wanted my life to be.

After getting to a breaking point I decided to just throw everything behind my back and do whatever felt closer to my heart's will. So I quit my job, went to see my family for 2 weeks and tried to get my batteries charged.

Also my health last week complicated things a bit. I was diagnosed with Bell's Palsy, which is basically a partial and 'temporary' paralysis of the face. Not easy, but already recovering!

Life lately (extra messy)

No, nop, not really.
I refuse to believe in how my life just turned into this huge mess in the last couple months.
Seriously, it just became ridiculously unbearable.

Remember me and Habibi splitting?  Yeah, he is still here.
Why? Well, he decided to present himself to Immigration (he has been illegal in the UK since before I met him) as he wants to go back to Tunisia. However, they didn't do anything at all, they just said they couldn't help him. So he came back, and he is now in contact with Refugee Action, an organisation that promises to pay for the ticket back home if he decides to go back. This process takes a bit of time (couple months? more maybe?) as it involves some legal procedures.

Life lately

Life in the past weeks hasn't been making it easy for me.

Me and Habibi have been talking about moving outside London, perhaps Manchester or Liverpool. Definitely cheaper and easier to have a deep breath without having to excuse myself. Honestly, and as I said before, I'm not in love with London anymore. Nice for a single person who doesn't have a future to worry about and has all an availability to go out and enjoy this huge city. For me it's time to look for a better place for myself in a less crowded environment, where I can focus in building my future.

Also Habibi had the stupid idea to leave his job 2 weeks ago, out of nowhere! He is illegal, so it's not that easy for him to get another job. Until this very moment he didn't find anything, so here we are with no future to be seen.

Life lately #1

# new job, routine, missing home, my ex (again).

I'm going through a very difficult time at the moment.
I got this new job in the cake department of a party shop which kind of inspires me to bake. Also my team is ok, I have a good time with my colleagues, so I'm happy. However my workplace is far away from home, and I don't get paid as much as I would like. No good. So I'm worried and looking for another job.

Also it has been difficult to conciliate everything. Habibi too, he is not in a very good moment of his life. So between both jobs, home and other activities, we end up not having time for each other. Actually we don't have time for anything, we have to pick the little opportunities to actually do something. Well, big mess!

Cake shop - my new job is a torture!!

So one of the reasons why I've been away for the last days is that I started working in a cake shop. Well, it's actually a party shop but I work in the cake section.

It has everything you might dream of if you like baking. Every kind of tools, ingredients, decorations... it's a different world! And this world has completely swallowed me. I pass all my day dreaming about baking - I never baked by myself but I used to help my mother, is that a good start?

Problems with my job - what happened

Remember me saying I wanted to quit my formal job?
Well, I did. Kinda.

In December I had a quick conversation with the assistant of the big boss (aka supervisor), in which I told him about how I was unhappy to work for them and how I wanted to leave the job.
As we have a 1 year contract, the guy just told me "You must give me your Resignation Letter and only after 1 month you can stop."

I didn't give any letter as I was waiting to get paid.
Well, in the beginning of the year he came with this completely different conversation saying "You know you're not working with us any more from next week...", and that he "accepted" my verbal notice.
More, he told me on Friday 2 January when the last day of our rota was Sunday 4 January.
I still fought back demanding at least 1 week notice as it says in the contract. He agreed and said he would talk to the boss. No answer.